heard this sentence from someone: it is no faith if no choices, without decision there will have no miracle.
ya, recently i seem like really scare of making choices.. i scare i will like the past, made some wrong decision then will regret a lot.. i don't want to have thosse feeling anymore.. for now, i just feel like getting off those things that bothering me soooo long time..
after that day, seems like no other way for me to realise my stress.. what i can do for now is just keep it inside my heart n talk to god only. for me, now i can just trust god.. he is the only 1 that can 100% keep my secret.. sometime i so feel to tell my friends beside me but i am so worry that i'm just disturbing u guys... u guys seem so busy.. but anyway, thanks for still so caring me..
here im trying to make the 'choice'.. i really hope the choice that i make will have a real miracle in my life..
im waiting~~~
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Thursday, April 15, 2010
time really flies... until today still cant really accept that i leave school life that long times... hmmm... i really very miss u guys..
honestly, i kinda miss those time that we had together, no matter what time... even tho in school i had many unhappy memories but i never hate it.. it will just like one of my another experience of life. all of these just like part of my life, without all these, i think my life will just like black and white only.. through this, i got many real friends, they will just really go inside my life, can read my mind, treat me with their heart. i really want to thank god for giving me such a best present in my life. although He want me to go through so many challenges in my life but he still will prepare someone beside me, support me.
this 4 month after spm i start my working life. from here i really learn many many many things that totally wont understand if you never work. for me, in the reality people will just care of their benefit. how to explain all this??? people just like wearing mask daily to work. when in front of employer, everyone really will just like to act as super busy, responsible. for me this is really funny... is this the only way to get what we want? is it really no another ways to it?
beside this, people just really like to act like they are genius. without checking whats going on will just scold others. when they know themselves get it wrong also wont say sorry. maybe this is what those adults always think? i really cant understand them. or maybe this is my 1st time of working and i cant get used to it yet?? haha... anyway, here want to say good luck to all my friends.. don't have argument easily, remember we are the salt and light of the world... let us shine for it for our god, amen?
bah.. lets add oil for our future, do it the best. never ever regret for what had happened before, just look forward!!!!! =)
